Good morning all, I hope you had a lovely evening.

Early morning start, I was up at 5.15am, took my tablet and went downstairs. As I have to wait for an hour before I can eat breakfast, stretches were first on my list.

Stretches ✔️

Breakfast ✔️

Shower ✔️

We were out of the door by 8am, ready for our drive to the hospital. Luckily the kids are on holiday yet again so the roads were fairly quiet.

We’ve arrived, found parking near the hospital and I’m in the waiting room for bloods. I then have my final round of chemo.

Bloods done, and I’ve checked in for chemo. Weight and bp taken. Now I wait to be called for my injection, the bee sting injection, the one that stings from the moment it touches my stomach!!!

I’ve been summoned, injection is ready. Only a 15 minute delay.

I’m and out so fast, I was done by 10.55am.

So that’s my 16th chemo (end of cycle 4) treatment completed. I now have an appointment on Friday with my consultant for an update about my progress. There should be no treatments for the next four weeks, only scans and biopsy appointments.

The last 4 months have flown by, I think the good days outweigh the bad days and that’s down to my diet and fitness, also backed up by the nurses and MacMillan staff. For me, it’s been difficult, adjusting to this new life hasn’t been easy with more adjustments to come. I miss my sporting activities, socialising and going for our long walks, holidays are off the cards for the foreseeable future but weekend breaks in the UK should be fine.

How do I feel deep down? Well, that’s a question to ask myself…it’s all still sinking in, without Dr N I know I would have suffered, only she knows what I’ve gone through, she’s seen the pain I’ve been in, she’s seen the brave face I’ve put on. Together we’re a team that can overcome anything. Only she knows how I’ve changed since diagnosis.

To answer my question, I still feel lost, sometimes the ‘why me’ question arises in my head. I have no idea what tomorrow brings and that’s scary, every treatment is scary. What will be will be.

After my treatment we went for a long 4 mile walk, stopped at a cafe and enjoyed a hot chocolate. Now we’re back at home, journey back took us an hour.

Dr N even fed a squirrel during our walk, the benefits of carrying a bag of nuts!!

The evening has been quiet and quite relaxing, a nice dinner and some tv.

I’m feeling tired, still suffering from chemo brain but generally feeling fine, could be the steroids.

Time for bed and another early start.

Good night all, sleep well.

❤️🙏🏽

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